As challenging as it was to actually start a blog, I knew this would be the hardest part. I'm sure it is for many, but the laying out of fears, ideas, thoughts, problems and shortcomings is not really all that pleasant. I could choose the easier way for me and write about my kids or my job or something wholly irrelevant to my journey ... and I'm sure I will resort to those topics at some point... but this is supposed to help me find out who I am beyond the titles and the labels and the responsibilties that I currently have. And hopefully it can serve you, too!
I was talking to my mom today and told her I started a blog. The speaker of one of the conferences she'd heard recently was talking about how blogging was about ego, not spiritually inclined. I hope that's not totally true and that somehow, by reaching out in this way to you, that I can find some spirituality, re-connect with old friends and make new friends, get real information about what others are doing and thinking out there so that I might walk down different paths I'd not thought of before.
So my small step challenge of the day is actually sitting down to write and admit that I am not all that comfortable doing it. I've always loved writing, creative writing, and still plan on a writing career later in my life (once I find that unique, untapped, never before heard or read topic that will bedazzle the entire human race), but doing this does feel a bit ego-centric. Scary even. What if no one reads it and worse what if they do and no one cares, or can't see the point? I think I have my topic for tomrorrow right there, but my question for the day: "How do you keep thinking that your own stuff is interesting or helpful to others and to yourself?"
1 comment:
Sure, it's about ego. So much of life is. But blogging is also about connecting and sharing and caring and honesty and so much more...My girlfriend who is a doc said so many of her patients are depressed because we no longer live near family and help one another raise families. She sees that people do not connect anymore to the extent we once did. I hope you new journey can serve as one way to do that--to expose your heart and thoughts and mind to those who care for you and feel accepted for it all. k
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